Then, I travel the two hours home every second weekend and amongst all the fun of visiting, I struggle a little.
Dinner out Friday night with G was fun. Bumping into friends I hadn't seen in forever and having an impromptu birthday party was wonderful. Fireworks on the beach courtesy of a local festival, an added bonus to a great night.
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| Sunset from our deck |
Waking up in the morning snuggled up with G and our cat doesn't happen often enough.
Saturday, I headed up to volunteer for a horsey event. The drill team from where I work during the week had travelled up a demo, and the local girls had arranged a fun games day at our beautiful club grounds to coincide with that. So many friends, old and new, to say hi to, and the sense of community there is amazing.
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| Coach from years past, S, upping the difficulty factor and bringing a tiny equine along for some of the games. Too cute. |
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| Bridget's one and only ride at the club grounds, a clinic shortly after I bought her |
Saturday night, take out dinner and Netflix with G (and our cat who is more like a dog). what should be a normal evening in, but it's a rarity these days
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| G taking Ginger to the lake a few years ago now |
And Sunday afternoon, back on the ferry boat to Bridget and my home away from home.
I miss living full time with G. I miss the friends I've had since I was a kid. I miss the little horsey community. I even miss our seemingly never ending hunt for a little horse property of our own.
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| Bridget again from that clinic, don't think I ever shared these nice pics! |
But, I love the opportunity I have here. I like having a good, secure job in my field with above average wages. I really like the area. The people are great. I love being able to take regular lessons, go to shows, and check off some of those long held horsey goals. I remind myself of how frustrated I was career and finances wise at home, how busy G is, and how difficult it is there horse wise.
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| It's beautiful here too |
It's hard to decide sometimes between conflicting desires. I would likely stay where I'm at but open to opportunities to return home. You will also make (and probably have made) some wonderful friends in your new location. Maybe get a kitten? :)
ReplyDeleteDefinitely staying for the time being, fingers crossed hard an appropriate career move opens up at home one day. If not, I remind myself to be grateful I have a great job as close to home as I do, since the job market in this area is terrible. Yes, fabulous friends here already, again so lucky in so many ways. Sometimes I just can't help but want it all though! And believe me, the second kitty option is on the table. Kitty = almost as good company as G ;)
DeleteThat does sounds very tough. I feel very torn right now between working more (to make more money for lessons and other horse things) vs. more family/friend time. I think it's a constant balancing act! I agree that having horses at home would be the most ideal situation :) Love those pics of miss Bridget!
ReplyDeleteThe long term plan is a farm at home where G and live happily every after. I am on the right path for that, even though it's not the easiest at times :)
DeleteLol the kitten idea!
ReplyDeletekittens are always a good answer ;)
DeleteI understand that challenge completely. I'm glad you're able to pursue the riding goals - but man it's hard not to let the what ifs creep in.
ReplyDeleteFor sure. I am still feeling confident in my choices overall, but it's hard some days.
DeleteUgh competing priorities are basically the worst. I know maybe a little bit of how you feel : my new job gets me closer to some goals while taking me farther from some of the comfort of routine I had been used to. Sometimes it's a challenge to remember the "why" there
ReplyDeleteI find it really hard to be away from G and my friends right now...but I think in the end it will all be worth it :)
DeleteChange is so scary especially when you are used to something, especially alone at night, I think that having a kitten would definitely help :)
ReplyDeleteKittens help everything. Corgis help even more ;)
DeleteI have a similar history. I moved across the country. I have a better job, horses, a great life, but all I want to do is move back to the east coast. I too want to buy a horse farm. One day. Keep dreaming, keep working.
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm sad for you because I understand exactly...wanting to move home but better opportunities for a good life are elsewhere.
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